Be with that truth of awfulness. It is your truth and running away from it will make it more hard for you.

I wrote an article on these lines. Maybe it can help-

https://medium.com/mystic-minds/sometimes-being-hopeless-is-the-key-to-massive-transformation-f966dc5b3428

https://medium.com/curious/4-practical-ways-to-handle-your-emotional-outburst-467d99ca8bf9

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